I knew immediately, with the birth of my first child, that I wanted to grow up to be a Doula. Even though my birth had plenty of unwanted interventions and some not so fabulous turns, I was helped immensely by my Doula. She never left my side, never judged me when I called for the epidural and most importantly, she helped me navigate the medical system so that I would come out feeling victorious. I felt the most incredible power that day..... After 2 hours and 20 minutes of pushing, a mama was born and I felt like the most powerful woman on the planet. I wanted to shout from the mountain tops, "LOOK WHAT I JUST DID!!!!" Every single woman deserves to feel that powerful. That feeling was addictive. So now, I am driven to hold space for each woman as she navigates the birth labyrinth. When she feels deeply supported and nurtured, she can find strength she never knew she had.
It's not about what interventions you want or don't want. It isn't about home birth or hospital birth. It isn't about choosing an OB vs. midwife..... It's about feeling powerful. It's about educating yourself on the birthing process so that you are an active participant in your journey and that your voice is heard. You deserve this. We all deserve this. As your advocate, I will not speak for you. I will simply empower you.
I would be honored to help guide you on that journey and help you find your power, without judgement. My role as your Doula is to hold space for you and your partner so that you can feel knowledgeable & confident with your choices. This will be the most memorable day of your life.
I'm mama bear to three crazies. My home is super loud but loaded with love. I'm joyful and smile pretty much all the time. That's a huge part of me. It has always been a huge part of me. I can easily re-frame a bad situation which is probably annoying to some but it's a trait that has helped me through life and guides me as I work with helping women find their power. I have deep roots that go back to my childhood in San Jose & I'm a professional actor on an endless hiatus ever since the birth world opened my eyes to a new found passion 8 years ago.
My interest in birth runs deep and I'm constantly taking classes, reading books & articles and learning as much as possible. I'm proud to use the CD(DONA) title as my certification was a huge milestone in my professional life. DONA International is the largest certification institution for Doula's. My intent to also become an International Board Certified Lactation Consultant (IBCLC) because I see the need for this with so many of my clients. I'm currently working on my pre req classes for the program.
I'm mostly just a mama who is super passionate about helping women start off their journey into motherhood on the best foot possible. Women helping women. It's powerful stuff.
My Birth Stories
Siena, October 2009
This birth taught me my power. It also showed me that even though you go in with knowledge (I'm pretty sure I had read every book) you are still in a very tricky medical system. It's a system that gives women very little say in their own experience and I had greatly underestimated the OB rotation. My OB was great but the OB on duty was now in charge.
I had a doula yet still, I ended up with unwanted pitocin which drove me to call for the epidural which I was hoping to avoid. I then ended with an episiotomy that was totally unnecessary. That said, I FELT POWERFUL. My doula helped me stay present and roll with the decisions. I was an active participant, even if things weren't going my way. Once my daughter was born, I felt like the most powerful woman on the planet and I craved the experience again. I knew immediately that I wanted to help everyone feel this power. I wanted to be a doula.
Jax, January 2012
I made a massive change and decided to deliver with a midwife at a hospital that was incredibly supportive of women owning their own births.
This was my hardest labor. I did it without the epidural but it was loaded with fear. My dad had passed away two months prior and what I know in hindsight was that my mind was in a very bad place. I was so excited to meet my sweet son but I was still mourning a major loss and was not at all emotionally strong.
I begged for drugs but knew I wasn't really wanting them. My doula and midwife both assured me that the epidural was a perfectly fine option, though neither one of them went running for the anesthesiologist because they weren't convinced that was my final decision. The battle was in my head. This labor gave me an intimate knowledge of fear. I had hit the wall that so many women hit. You want to stop and go home but you can't. You MUST birth this baby. There is power that comes from facing that fear. I was reminded that I was safe by both my doula and my midwife and I could tell that everything was normal because they were so calm...... but I was still petrified. I somehow made the decision to not get the epidural or perhaps my body just kept moving forward as I battled the decision to take drugs or not. I transitioned into pushing and in 6 minutes, Jax exploded into this world.
He is my most emotional child, hands down. I do fully believe that his temperament and beautiful heart are directly connected to my experiences while I was pregnant and in labor. It's all connected.... all of it. My dad dying, my fear of labor, my panic and my inability to allow this birth to be graceful. It's connected.
Cruz, December 2013
It took me three tries but this was the labor I had been dreaming about. I finally figured out how to allow the experience and it was stunning. This labor truly and completely transformed my belief that birth is a full and complete mind/body connection. You can't just know the information, you need to BELIEVE the information. You need to believe in yourself and your body's incredible power and you need to be surrounded by peopIe who also believe in your amazing power. I went into this birth knowing my power.... I was no longer learning about it and I had an easy time managing the pain. There was no fear and every single part of this labor and delivery felt easier than my others...... I was just so fully confident in myself and it felt amazing.